daily ramblings

Hello good people!

Midyear Retreat is on Wednesday! I am SO excited to  see the other volunteers! Yaaay! :)
We are flying out of Ft. Lauderdale, after swinging through Miami to get Tania and Alejandro, and headed to Villa Maria, in Pennsylvania. We'll come back Sunday. :)

Time's just flyin', it seems. February is almost halfway done, come Thursday, and that dreaded Hallmark holiday...March we have immersion groups coming down, and potentially a visit from a friend! If not, they will come in April. (Cough, Jackie, Cough, Any updates? Cough Cough). Then summer is going to fly by with the all-day summer camp we are going to do with the Guadalupe Center (God, equip me with patience...) And we're getting two new roommates and volunteers in our community for the summer (most likely). Anyways, my point is, time was dragging from August-December, but now it kinda feels like sooner, than later, I'll be back home. (WHAT UP CLEVELAND?!)

What's next?? Ha. Don't ask.....no, but, really, don't ask. It gives me anxiety.

I'm super excited--I got in touch with the Campus Focus people at Ave Maria, and get to meet and hang out with them soon :) Yay for new friends! Yay for growing in my faith! :) I was supposed to meet them tonight, but I'm layin' in bed, feeling sicker than ever, so naturally that ruined my plans...Rawr.

Got a lovely Valentine's Day card in the mail today :) I have the best friends ever in life. I am so blessed with the kindness, love, and support I receive from these beautiful people in my life.

Here comes my thoughts pertaining to God and Faith:

I've been reflecting a lot on what it means to Love Like Jesus Loves...and let me tell ya..We have a good God! I cannot even begin to fathom how after time and time and time again I fail, I am STILL loved, STILL forgiven, and STILL taken back by God. After I choose other things first, and hurt and betray God over and over, not one time have I been left or abandoned. Not once has God given up on me and said "forget you, I'm done with you". It's crazy, because so often when I am hurt and I am fed up, I cut people out. I can't bring myself to forgive them or love them, though I want to love like Jesus loves, it's SO HARD. And therefore, I am so grateful and thankful and humbled by the amount of love and mercy I am given...each and every day. I am also grateful for the lessons I am learning through my own pain and suffering. There are lyrics to a song that I really have been drawn to, and felt like my time here would explain to me: It's a Christian song, and the words are: "Break my heart for what breaks Yours". Let me tell ya...God's allowed my heart to break for sure. And it just shows me how much God's heart breaks at all the messed up, wrong, unjust crap that goes on in this world.  I know the pain of a broken heart. And it coming from one person, I just think of how God's heart breaks like mine, but times, I dunno, about 7 billion??  Sheesh. The next lyrics in the song go: "Show me how to love like You have loved me." God sure is showing me that, but I am nowhere near being able to model that like I want to..but I'm trying....Anyways, I could go on and on about this, as I've been thinking about and praying on this a LOT. We can have more in depth conversation about it at a different time...

Anyways, gotta take the car in tomorrow to get looked at...started smoking from the hood the other day when I was driving it...no bueno :(

I have a headache and it's probably time to sleep.
But I just wanted to let out some random thoughts,
and updates on my life and everything going on in my
crazy head. :)

If you've made it this far, I thank you. You're a keeper :)

Be blessed, people.

:)